Yawn.
Seriously, this is messed up. I haven't had a full night's sleep since...well, since I got clean. My body is SO used to having drugs in it to fall asleep, that when I took away those drugs it's like my body now has no clue what to do.
I typically wake up at least five times. I'll go to the bathroom, shove some food in my mouth, smoke, check twitter, something. I should probably try to resist getting out of bed when I wake in the middle of the night and try to go back to sleep right away. But the waking up moments aren't just a little bit awake, they are AWAKE.
I'm beyond frustrated. I'm taking melatonin & valerian root currently. I'm investigating 5HTP. I have a history of abusing both prescription and over-the-counter sleep meds, so those are out. (I'd need a shrink who'd actually agree to see me to get a script anyways, but that's a whole different story). I'm trying to watch caffeine intake after 3:00. I've tried naps, not napping. Argh.
I'm sorry to whine. I truly am. Life is SO much better clean, and I have to remember I wasn't getting quality sleep back then anyways - it was more nodding out and collapsing into exhaustion.
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